
Everyone groaned when I said I wasn't excited about turning
25...they all told me I was lucky to be so young. Granted, most of my peers and coworkers are older than me but it doesn't discount the way I feel about myself getting older. I used to feel like I was "ahead of my age"..I was working a fulltime job, making more money than everyone I knew (actually..more than I'm making in my current job today), and was living alone when I was 18. I was in a committed relationship and did not rely on my parents financially at all. By the time I was 23, I owned my own house and instead of going out to party, I was paying bills and taking week long vacations. Now however, I feel like I have caught up to, or even fallen behind, others my age. People I went to high school with have graduated college, gotten married, and had children. It's no longer 'unique' for me to own my own house, have a good job, etc... I feel like that's expected at age 25. This is why turning 25 hit me so hard; I feel unaccomplished in life. I haven't graduated college, I'm not married (common law doesn't count), and I dont have a large circle of friends. When I express these feelings to the people in my life, they remind me that I dont have thousands of dollars in student loans, I'm not over my head in debt, I have a stable job, a close family and a great relationship. It doesn't change things in my mind.
Nonetheless, May 31st came and I turned a year older. I tried to be a good sport about it even though I was pretty depressed inside. I did ask that no one buy any presents; I didn't want cake or a party or anything. Some quiet time with Brandon and my family was really all I wanted. Since Brandon gave me some of my birthday $$ last weekend for my "Girls Day Out" and we will be taking a four day vacation next weekend, we decided to keep it simple this weekend.

We joined my parents at Hart State Park, threw our tent together, and headed out on the boat. The weather was excellent! There was a slight breeze and lots of sunshine. I did indeed wear SPF 60+ which was the thickest, grossest stuff I have ever used. I dont think I have ever smeared on anything above SPF 10..guess there's a first time for everything. Everyone caught a fish but me; I gave up after a while and just read a book while enjoying the

fresh air.
That night we drove into town and tried a new restaurant. By the time we got back to the site we were all exhausted! Brandon and I fished from the back of the boat for a little while while Bob built a campfire and then fell asleep in the chair. Mom sat around the fire and read a book..and listened to Bo

b snore. Once it got dark, Brandon and I played a few card games and then it was bedtime! Someone across the lake was shooting off fireworks around 11pm so we layed in the tent and watched the show.
Sunday morning, Brandon and I took the boat out for a while without Mom and Bob. It was nice to do a little fishing and relaxing together. Brandon caught a little baby fish and I caught a leaf. Since the wind was picking up, we didn't get to spend much time out on the lake that day. We packed all of our stuff, loaded the boat, and headed home.

Brandon and I stopped and looked at some houses in a neighborhood we passed

and then went home to check on Rupert and Tonka. After dinner at Fatz and then a movie rental, we went home and took a nap. After nap time it was movie time and then back to bed!
The weekend was very relaxing and much needed. We wanted to take it easy since we have a long weekend coming up- a family trip to the lake! My family and Brandon's family will be staying in cabins at the lake Friday thru Monday..should be tons of fun!