Yeah, Maybe

The moments in life where you finally hear what someone has said... those instances where you are literally stopped in your tracks because you realize you are affected by the words people have spoken to and about you... the times you cry tears of confusion because you don't know whose definition of yourself you believe... the bursts of anger you feel when the pain that has been caused reaches the deepest depths of your core... During those moments, you are forced to admit that you don't want to know yourself.

What if they are right? Maybe you are determined to be unhappy, despite any good that comes along in your life. Maybe you are unable to maintain friendships because you are unlikeable and maybe you do instill the feeling of fear of upsetting you in those who get close to you.  Maybe you are just that overweight 'salt & pepperfaced' insecure selfish bitch they've always told you that you are. 

But. Maybe you're not. Maybe you're just misunderstood. Maybe you expect a lot out of people because you are willing to give the same. Maybe you have such desire to connect with someone on a deeper level because you need to feel like you belong and have a purpose. Perhaps being abandoned, literally and figuratively, time and time again has left a feeling of emptiness and loneliness which has caused you to cling too tightly to others.