Love Runs Out

Why do I have the desire to still be nice and understanding and friendly, when I feel you haven't done the same for me? I want to respond to your text messages and I want to ask you if you're ok... but I realize you didn't care if I was. You didn't hold me while I cried and you didn't take the time to explain your feelings to me or help me understand what was going on. So why do I care? Maybe it's because I still want "one day" to happen. I want you to have a heart to heart and tell me whats going on and explain how you're getting help... that you realize all the ways you've messed up your life and that you'll do anything to earn back the love and trust of those that you've hurt.. that you're sorry. My heart wants all of these things but my mind knows they will never happen. My mind knows that's not whats best for me. My heart cant let go though and that's what makes it so difficult. Why do you keep popping up?.. you haven't done any of the things I've asked you to do. Why do you think you're doing me a favor by maintaining a form of 'friendship'? Why cant I just tell you to go away and stop contacting me? I know you are just doing it to avoid rocking the boat so I wont 'force' you to do the things you don't want to do... you don't actually care about me. Maybe you are wanting me to tell you I miss you and that I'm doing terrible without you, to make you feel better about yourself. Maybe you want me to initiate the conversation about all the things you haven't done yet so you can make me out to be the crazy person you think I am. Maybe you're realizing you're not better on your own like you thought you'd be. All of the maybes in the world don't make up for reality.. you left. You abandoned me emotionally, you abandoned your responsibilities at the house, you abandoned me. I should be mad, furious even, and I should want to just cut you and your bullshit out of my life. Sometimes love runs out, sometimes love runs you over and sometimes love just runs away.

I cant wait for the day when I can say I'm: 

"Over You"

Graffiti6

Lay down your armour baby.
No need to fight no more.
Cause I've been wondering darlin'.
And we should stop this war.

Cause it's alright.
Nothing lasts forever baby.
It's alright.
Now I can dance.

Cause I'm over you.
This time is the last time.
I'm over you.
That won't change.
Said I'm over you.
This time is the last time.
Always.

I don't need no arguments,
Just walk through the door baby.
Sometimes I don't know what we're screaming about.
You lose yourself, I lose myself baby.

But it's alright.
Nothing lasts forever baby.
It's alright.
Now I can dance.

Cause I'm over you.
This time is the last time.
I'm over you.
I can change.
Said I am over love.
This time is the last time.
Always, my love.

And maybe yeah, it took a long time
When you're running from truths that you can't find.
And oh Lord, I was in pieces
When love had gone.

But now I'm over you.
This time was the last time.
I'm over you.
I can dance.
Said I'm over love.
This time was the last time.
Always, always.

Said I'm over you.
This time is the last time.
I'm over you.
I can change.
Said I'm over love.
This time is the last time.
For always.