Because

I'm embarrassed to admit I know how many hours it's been since I last heard from you.
I'm embarrassed to admit how easily and often I still succumb to tears.
I'm embarrassed to admit that I wake up constantly during the night & roll over to see if you're there.
I'm embarrassed to admit that I take a new route to work to avoid passing you.
I'm embarrassed to admit that I avoid driving by your new place in fear that you will see me. 











I'm sad because the flower you planted is starting to bloom and you wont see it.
I'm sad because you planned an amazing birthday trip for me and now I don't know what to do.
I'm sad because the pets look for you in your room.
I'm sad because everything in the house has a story or memory of us; everything reminds me of you.
I'm sad because we just purchased new living and bedroom furniture that you picked out.
I'm sad because the neighbors see the garage door open and close with only my car in it.

 










I'm stressed because there are so many unfinished projects at the house that I'm responsible for now.
I'm stressed because I cant afford to pay the bills without your financial help.
I'm stressed because I get scared living alone.
I'm stressed because I don't know what your plans are for the house, bills and your belongings.
I'm stressed because I'm worried about you.
I'm sad because I'm worried about you.
I'm embarrassed because I'm worry about you.