I'm doing what I have to do to get by and to function but I didn't sign up for this. I don't get to escape and run from my responsibilities. I have the house and the pets and the bills - commitments I entered into with you and the promise of forever.
I've turned into my mom - trying to fix people that don't want to be fixed. You've turned into your dad - emotionally and mentally unavailable. Your dad died alone. He was dead for days before we found him; dead for days before anyone missed him. He was alone.
I can't help but to feel like you walked out in the middle of the 7th inning just because you were down in runs. Instead of sticking around and making a game plan, instead of realizing you were still capable of turning the game around and coming out with a win... You threw down your glove and walked off the field.
The fact that I can't even explain in your words what the problem is proves we haven't tried everything.. You haven't tried. I deserve someone who is just as willing to swallow their pride and break down their barriers for me as I am for them. I deserve someone that will love me even when it's not easy and someone that will let me love them even when they don't want to be loved.
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"If there's love in your heart
I hope you find it
Before you tear yourself apart
If there's love, if there's love
Don't go runnin' away
The past just won't stop following you
Take a little time today
To face what you know in your heart is
true "
(- Mutlu, In Your Heart)
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